So, I needed a new front door. I NEEDED it...didn't just WANT one...NEEDED it. So, my dad went with me to get it. He and I brought it home, put it in my garage. He looked over the door opening and I could see the look on his face...he was dreading the job. After all, he is 86 years old and he is worn out. I tried to find someone to do that job and do it in a way I could afford. However, I did not have luck making contact with the names of guys I was given that COULD do it. Until I found this group in the area that helps fix up neglected properties. I asked the guy in charge of that if he could share a name of someone with me that I could contact to install a door for me. This guy says his group can do it for cheaper as long as they can put before and after pictures on the website. He sent a guy over who looked it over and gave me a price. I had no other options.
He came, did the job. Left. BUT, I did not check before he left. There are things not completed. I have had a back and forth with his 'boss' about it. This guy wanted me to pay more to complete things. I told him to not come back because I would take care of it. THEN the guy texts me this morning and tells me he lost the check I gave him and could I give him another? If I STOP the check, I can write him another less the price of the STOP fee. Another lesson for me: he wanted me to leave the 'payee' line blank so that he could fill it in with his daughter's name so that she could deposit it.
I texted him back and raked him up one side and down the other. I told him that I would put a STOP on it but it is Sunday and there is no guarantee that will not be cashed before the STOP goes into effect. He will have to wait a few days for me to make sure that it did not get cashed AND if it turns out that it has been cashed, he will not be getting another check. I have not heard anything from him. Think he was trying to get 2 payments out of me? (oh, he JUST texted me and told me he found it in the wash...could he stop by and get a new check? I told him if he brings me the ruined check I will write him another one but not unless he gave me the proof...no offense. *eye roll* He told me he can do that but it looks like lint. I told him that if HE could tell it was my check, then I should be able to, also. piece.of.work)
This is what happens when you let strangers into your life for ANY reason.
On the other hand, the guy that mows my lawn is the opposite. He mows my lawn for the same amount that he charges the woman behind me...and my lawn is twice what hers is. He does all the trim and he does a GREAT job! He is a breath of fresh air. A man of integrity. SO appreciated! ALMOST gives me faith in humanity. Almost.
I actually gave a bit of thought to checking out the Elks Club and maybe joining. But...I am rethinking that. Those types of clubs have a lot of drinking involved and I don't want to be getting into all of that sort of crowd. I am not saying they are bad people and I am better. It is just that I am trying to live my life in a more spiritual, deliberate manner and entwining myself with groups that do a lot of drinking and do not have a spiritual leaning is not the right thing for me.
I can sit and look back on my life and how I had lived it and the things that I did wrong. I cannot be angry about things that have happened that have changed my life in a way that I had not wanted because if you commit sin, and ask forgiveness, God will forgive you but that does not mean that there are not worldly consequences.
I know...it is easy to look at others and all of the crooked, sinful things they are doing and seem to have it easy and have lots of things and money BUT...the deal there is...they are not asking for forgiveness and have no plan to quit doing what they are doing. Therefore, they may NOT have any worldly consequences but there are consequences once they pass from this world and those consequences are forever and beyond.
I know God has forgiven me for my sins...I asked Him to...but the problem is I have not quite forgiven myself. I do realize though that I see things in a different way and those sins of the past are that...past. It is not something I feel I would be tempted to repeat. I can, however, give some advice on the matter to my children and hope that they will listen and learn from MY mistakes.
I have noticed something about me...after all of the things...life with the ex, the divorce, lost friendships...it has made me much more serious. My sense of humor is less and less.
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