I should have had the flooring down in the other bedroom by now. It is almost 2 o'clock in the afternoon and I have barely moved. I mean...other than a shower, cooking and downing 2 burritos, and playing a little with my dog. It is so humid it is like breathing water. And because of that, Lucy was only too happy to come in from the sunroom so I could shut the door and turn on the AC a little. It's not that it is so very hot, the humidity just makes it hard to breathe. I always let the AC run for a little bit to get some cool air circulating then I turn on the fan. It pretty much takes care of it all.
I will eventually get myself in that bedroom and start laying the flooring. And I will kill myself to do it all before I pass out tonight. Only because my son will be here Sunday afternoon and I have other things I need to accomplish before he gets here.
The neighbors next door had a party for some reason last night. A middle of the week party. It wasn't terribly large because the cars all fit in their driveway except 2...which parked on this side road but they parked way down past my driveway...not next to my porch. They started about 6 so it was over by dark. Lynn came across the back yard and in through my deck sliding glass door. She said, "I am sure they see me come to your house and now BJ (the neighbor's airhead wife) will be miffed by it. I don't care. " I mean...after all...they want everyone to think they are wonderful and I am the newcomer to the neighborhood...and the 'enemy' of sorts. Neighborhood drama...ugh.
Lynn explained to me about the neighborhood politics and who lived where. I also discovered that the guy that was principal of the school at which I did my student teaching also lives just down the road from me. To tell you the truth I would not recognize him because I barely remember what he looks like. Lynn is also friends with one of the teachers I student taught with.
Sometimes I like being back in a smaller world and sometimes....not so much.
I like meeting new people sometimes. I like having friends to do things with once in a while. I just don't like people bothering me all of the time. I am not sure which Lynn will be. Frankly, I am pretty sure she won't bother me a lot. She DID say that she wants to take me with her to the Elks Club down the road for dinner and drinks and so that I can meet other people in the area. This is the second time someone wanted to take me to the Elks Club. I am not really sure what the significance of that whole place is. I am not good with CLUBS. I am not big on organized things like that. Too many rules and weird regulations make me itch.
But once she mentioned she was a member of the Elks club, I got a little excited because I thought maybe I would find out what happened to my HS friend, Nancy. I described to Lynn where Nancy had lived...just 4 doors down the road from me, right before the Elks Club. Lynn said, "Oh, did she have an alterations business?" yes. She said some of the women dropped things off for Nancy to do but she had not really come to the club much. Her husband was a member and they had not been married very long when she just died suddenly. There evidently was never an explanation. Considering there was not ever an explanation other than she died suddenly...it gives me the sinking feeling that she had attempted suicide again, and this time she did not fail. I would rather not jump to conclusions but Nancy had battled depression for years. She had attempted it once and her first husband foiled her attempt.
Me knowing how she died, exactly, will not change the fact that she is dead. I certainly did not elaborate to Lynn anything about Nancy's past or anything else about her. It would serve no purpose.
I did learn about Lynn's first husband and his descent into severe OCD mental illness and his refusal for help. So, she had divorced him. Then she told me about the second husband that she met after moving to the neighborhood and the other 2 women in the neighborhood that 'attacked' her once Carmen (the sought after widower) started dating her. yep...drama. I guess this stuff is good to know in order to help navigate the terrain around here but if it had been a show on Netflix I would have passed it up by now.
I drank a half bottle of wine last night. I couldn't seem to stop because it has been quite a while since I had any and it really tasted good. Lynn drank the other half of course and she meandered back home. I am pretty sure that half of bottle of wine is the reason I have no ambition today. It is the reason I have not had wine in quite a while.
Today I just want to read and chill. Maybe I won't get that floor done tonight. We'll see.
I was thinking this morning about how much more confident I feel about being me...on the inside. I am not so confident about my outer self but I can't seem to muster enough 'oomph' to do much about it. I can get myself to do everything but WORK to slim down. I was not impressed by my house guest, Vicky, and her eating habits because of that sleeve she had put on her stomach. I know it is great for some people but I really don't want to have to do that. However, on the other hand, I am not wanting to do much of anything anyway.
One thing I am going to do it get off of here and read my book...
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