I have seen a lot of blogs and online help groups for divorced people trying to get over it...get on with life,..put the broken pieces together.
But you know what so many of us just needed to be hit in the face with? THIS:
YOU HAVE BEEN CONNED. Get over the fact that you were wrong. This person that you thought you were marrying was only a facade. They did what they had to do to get what they wanted. The problem is, they forgot to jump out of the boat before it docked. They went through with the wedding and said "I do." then realized they didn't really want to. They never considered your feelings nor intended to be the person they had made you believe they were. They do not have the capacity or ability to consider anyone else's feelings. They get upset and agitated when you try to make them be that person they pretended to be. And then...they walk away as if you were nothing more than a brief annoyance. Absorb that...accept it. You were not stupid, just trusting and ignorant of what is out there in the world.
And yes, it is difficult...so difficult to accept that you are that wrong...that naive...and have been duped so amazingly. It makes you question your whole life...judgment, knowledge, IQ! It is amazing the swath of destruction that such a person can cause.
However, I refuse to accept that I am completely stupid in every area of my life. I just made the mistake of being trusting and naive. Other women do not have that same understanding.
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I finished my class, got an A-, paid off my class, sent the grade card and receipt to the Tuition reimbursement department. Then I signed up for my license tests, paid my money, and put in for a personal day because this is going to take all day. Then I sent in my internet reimbursement paperwork and that amount I get back will cover the cost of my tests. whew.
THEN I will have to figure out where the money is coming to pay for my license application. Sheesh.
It will get done. Just like working things out with their dad to help get Bethany's ER and Physician bills taken care of. She was dragging her feet and not addressing it with her dad so I sucked it up and emailed him then exchanged info via text and email and when he asked if he could call me, I told him I would email what he needed. He was able to do what needed to be done without speaking to me. Then it was over and I moved on. He didn't get a chance to say something that would upset me and I didn't have to hear his voice, which makes me angry.
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Lucy got taken to a new vet today. I really liked the place. They were very nice, clean, and Lucy handled it well. She got checked, got her shots and was given a good report. Whew! She came home and ate the cookie I gave her but has not been interested in eating her dinner. She has laid in her bed and slept for hours, except when she went outside a few times to go to relieve herself. It was too daunting for her. She is a princess.
The next stop is the doggy beauty parlor and spa. I will have to make an appointment for her next week. I finally made a chiropractor appointment for myself. I have been putting up with unnecessary pain below my neck and in my lower back.
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I was given a Health Rider and I love it. Unfortunately, I have been having some health issues that have kept me from using for the last 2 days. We will see what happens over this weekend. I have also turned into an old ppl...bed early. However, it has not meant I get up earlier. I have been dragging very badly. Not sure why I am so tired..exhausted. But tomorrow is Saturday and if I want to go back to bed I will. I don't have anything I have to do until 2 o'clock when I go to see A Wrinkle In Time in 3D with Bethany and Jordan.
