The Eyes Have It

I got a flyer in the mail from the local Medical Center announcing free Stroke Screening.  Something made me give it some thought and then I called and set up my appt.  Not sure I need it but at my age, it won't hurt.  My father and my older sister both have high blood pressure and my father has blood clot problems.  I have always had good cholesterol levels and my mother's low-end-of -the-spectrum blood pressure but it never hurts to be checked.

I went to the Retinal Specialist this morning to check on getting my eye surgery.  He said that things are worse from when he first examined me and it is good that I am going for the eye surgery now because it is pulling my retina from my eye and if I wait much longer, the surgery will have little chance of helping my eye sight.  As it is now, it is an 85% chance of helping my eye sight.  But I have made up my mind that God is going to make sure I am in that 85%.  Prayer will help.

I came out of there being angry at the ex.  If he had been a REAL man...if he had been that guy that considered me worth anything...I would not be doing this on my own and having to borrow money from my parents to pay for this.  I do not know, yet, what it is going to cost me but I am pretty sure I can't afford my part once the hospitalization is done.

But, my anger is done.  What is over is over.  I will get through this.  And I will move on.  It is what it is.

My older neighbor, Phyllis the Piano Lady, died the beginning of this week.  Her cancer came back and within 2 months, it was over.  She had a crappy first marriage...stayed with it until her sons were out of school. Then she was alone for many years.  Found her current husband Dave and was married to him for the last 4 years. She told him that these last 4 years were the happiest of her life.  I am happy she had him there with her so that she did not have to endure it alone.

I have hope that God will bring me someone, not too far down the road, so that I can have some of the happiest years of my life.  Although, really...raising my kids and spending my days with them, was pretty happy and wonderful.