It arrived...like a thief in the night. I sat last night and was thinking over how things are ever changing now....sometimes several times a day. It is a good kind of busy and stress.
At one time last week I wasn't sure having Brit here was going to work. I wanted some sort of calmness in my life where I didn't have to figure things out for another person. But then, God answered prayers and things started to click into place. She was hired into our church daycare. She felt empowered. And with TJ's help she has been able to sit back and see things for what they are. She is doing well with the distance between her and her crazy mom and sister. She is relaxed around here and laughs a lot now. She will still have her down moments but she knows she has the freedom to talk things out with me and TJ. I try not to insert my thoughts into hers. The most I will tell her is I don't understand that whole thing and I blame her mom for it all. She is learning how to do things and she is finding out she is NOT stupid like her mom always lead her to believe. I am seeing a different Brit...happier, more confident.
With the extra person and job schedule in the house, we are all learning to dance together...work things out and help. It is working. It is still in transition but it is working. Even the dogs are getting used to a lot of in and out. Bethany's friends have started popping back in once in a while. I hope to get the new paver patio and fire pit done just in time for fall Mum Festival time. Perhaps they will come gather on the back patio with the fire pit. The pups will be so joyful! LOL
This hub bub...this coming and going and never being truly sure when/who/where things/people are going to be or happen....and everyone is productive and happy...this is the life I like. While it looks like a whirlwind, I like it. It reminds me of 'home'...my teenage years and beyond. There was always a juggling act going on but we always tried to find some time in the week to all gather together and share our thoughts and observations. We TALKED with each other. We let each other be themselves. It is like that here. And it is good. It is right.
God removed the bad part and replaced it with all the things I love.
Evil Spawn would never put up with this life. He would be riding them all to get out and he would be railing on me for allowing it to be this way.
I AM allowing it to be this way because it is how they are all learning to be considerate, thoughtful, independent adults. They are being happy while learning how to work with and around others. Life is a learning process and you have to have the room, freedom and support to be able to change, learn, grow. I love these almost-adults that come and go through this house. They are decent, thoughtful and use wisdom.
God is good. And my life is finally the calm in the midst of the happy chaos...and we all love each other and appreciate each other.
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