I have no major problems. Not at this point. I will enjoy my respite for now. Something always comes along, eventually but I am not going to sit in wait.
Brittany was able to secure the job at my church's daycare. She begins her new job next Monday. She seems happy and excited. I hope it goes well. Her happiness is fleeting. I am hoping that once she starts there she can look into seeing a counselor. She is going to need it.
TJ is waiting to get his interview for a full time assistant TV news producer. I am confident he is going to get the job. He was told by one of the admins over in the TV studio that TJ is his pick for the job. AND that there will be 2-3 producers leaving in about 3-4 months so if TJ does his assistant job well, he can move up quickly. It would be nice to see things go well for TJ and Brit.
Bethany will be starting classes the last week of August. It will be a juggling act that week. TJ will be returning from a week in NYC just as I am leaving for a 2 day all staff meeting at a conference and resort center and Bethany will be starting classes.
I am still training and seems I will be next week also. I have lots of material to cover.
This weekend I am taking Bethany and Jordan 'home' to be around the family. Bethany hasn't had much chance to see anyone since March. Jordan will get to meet EVERYONE all in one weekend. He is excited and nervous all at once.
I am back to trying to lose weight...for many reasons: 1) my lower back; 2) my hips; 3) my heart; 4) so that I can feel like the real me inside and out, again; 5) the most vain reason of all...to be attractive for someone new. No, I don't have anyone in mind. Bethany at first thought that was a terrible reason but I pointed out to her that whether we like it or not, people are visual and outward appearances matter. I asked her to honestly tell me that she would have been quite so attracted to Jordan if he still looked like the fat, poofy haired guy he was in 10th grade. I see her think about it and she admitted she may not have talked to him at first. I told her, "See? He is still the same guy inside and personality wise BUT in order for someone to want to get to know you, they have to be attracted to you." It is the way of the beast. Although, in my ex's case, he is attracted by the availability of sex. And he doesn't seem to much care about the outside package. *shudder*
Anyhow...I had better get back to my training sessions. And by next Monday I should (hopefully) have my office set up. And have a regular routine established.
Wednesday, July 29, 2015
Sunday, July 26, 2015
The Struggle with Humanity
First week of my new job. Lots of training and a struggle. I got hit with some sort of 'bug'. Thursday I spent the day battling with what felt like a terrible sinus infection kind of headache. As the evening came, it became more. Every muscle in my body hurt. By Friday it was the head, the stomach, every joint and nerve. I found it difficult to get through my day. Yesterday it wasn't as painful so I went out in the yard and worked in the heat. My yard has had too much neglect and I am going to have to find some time each evening to tackle some part. The constant rain this summer has made it difficult but we seem to be slowing down on the rain.
Friday TJ had to go to the courthouse with his fiancée. Her sister had gone to the police department a week and a half ago and filed charges against her and seeking a restraining order. They had had an argument and did some pushing and shoving. The two had never gotten along and according to my son's accounts of his observations, her sister has a thug attitude and never tried to be nice to Brit. She has accused Brit of many things over the years which Brit has proved to not be true. The mother does nothing about any of it and lately has accused Brit of being full of the devil and evil. Brit left the Pentecostal church the family had attended and has been going to a Bible church with TJ. It all seems like a compaign against Brit for leaving the Pentecostal church. When TJ started dating Brit and I found out she was going to Pentecostal church, I raised my eyebrows and it raised the hairs on the back of my neck. I wanted him to run in the opposite direction. Right away Brit's mom started attacking him for not 'believing' as he should.
Anyway, the court told Brit she had 2 choices...either get a lawyer and go to court OR sign a paper agreeing to stay away from her sister and THE HOUSE for 5 years. She was told that by doing that she would not have a misdemeanor on her record. AFTER she signed it she was then told that she would have a domestic violence charge show up on background checks for 5 years. And this was her sister. I cannot fathom this type of family dysfunction.
I am in my own struggle with trying to find real forgiveness in my heart for my ex. I was especially convicted this morning during a Charles Stanley sermon about forgiving. God has forgiven me for everything...I am to forgive my ex. My struggle is trying to separate forgiveness from other feelings. I can forgive him without loving him. I just am having trouble with separating the two. This is a journey and God will reveal it to me.
Friday TJ had to go to the courthouse with his fiancée. Her sister had gone to the police department a week and a half ago and filed charges against her and seeking a restraining order. They had had an argument and did some pushing and shoving. The two had never gotten along and according to my son's accounts of his observations, her sister has a thug attitude and never tried to be nice to Brit. She has accused Brit of many things over the years which Brit has proved to not be true. The mother does nothing about any of it and lately has accused Brit of being full of the devil and evil. Brit left the Pentecostal church the family had attended and has been going to a Bible church with TJ. It all seems like a compaign against Brit for leaving the Pentecostal church. When TJ started dating Brit and I found out she was going to Pentecostal church, I raised my eyebrows and it raised the hairs on the back of my neck. I wanted him to run in the opposite direction. Right away Brit's mom started attacking him for not 'believing' as he should.
Anyway, the court told Brit she had 2 choices...either get a lawyer and go to court OR sign a paper agreeing to stay away from her sister and THE HOUSE for 5 years. She was told that by doing that she would not have a misdemeanor on her record. AFTER she signed it she was then told that she would have a domestic violence charge show up on background checks for 5 years. And this was her sister. I cannot fathom this type of family dysfunction.
I am in my own struggle with trying to find real forgiveness in my heart for my ex. I was especially convicted this morning during a Charles Stanley sermon about forgiving. God has forgiven me for everything...I am to forgive my ex. My struggle is trying to separate forgiveness from other feelings. I can forgive him without loving him. I just am having trouble with separating the two. This is a journey and God will reveal it to me.
Thursday, July 16, 2015
Ups and Downs...Ins and Outs
It is official. I have a job!! I start the 27th. whew!!
Then, I got on my Linked In to update it and found out that Evil Spawn's female friend, Thug Life, had been checking out my profile. I gave him hell about it right away. He told me she wasn't on Linked In...I told him she lied...shocker. This, of course, set off a texting war back and forth a few times. I told him to just leave me alone and take her with him. I don't want her nose stuck in my life. I have been ignoring both of them and don't want him in my life. He told me I was being immature. I told him I am allowed since he was immature enough to send me an "I think we should get a divorce" EMAIL.
So...that's done. PLEASE let him be GONE.
And just when my life was calming down...another 'adventure'. My son's fiancée has moved in. It has to do with a domestic situation at her mom and step-dad's home that her sister started. Brit has packed her things and left the crazy mom and sister for good. The poor girl is so hurt but I have been trying to reassure her that I will help her as much as possible.
Not sure how the adjustment is going to be.
Anyway...I am taking them all out to dinner tonight. ouch.
(by ALL OUT I was referring to Bethany, TJ, Brit, Amber, Amy)
update: I got an email from the school...they want me to start in 3 days (20th) instead. At least it is VIRTUAL training. I thought I had a week to get their paperwork and background check done AND get the son's fiancée settled in. I am NOT complaining though! Not AT ALL.
Then, I got on my Linked In to update it and found out that Evil Spawn's female friend, Thug Life, had been checking out my profile. I gave him hell about it right away. He told me she wasn't on Linked In...I told him she lied...shocker. This, of course, set off a texting war back and forth a few times. I told him to just leave me alone and take her with him. I don't want her nose stuck in my life. I have been ignoring both of them and don't want him in my life. He told me I was being immature. I told him I am allowed since he was immature enough to send me an "I think we should get a divorce" EMAIL.
So...that's done. PLEASE let him be GONE.
And just when my life was calming down...another 'adventure'. My son's fiancée has moved in. It has to do with a domestic situation at her mom and step-dad's home that her sister started. Brit has packed her things and left the crazy mom and sister for good. The poor girl is so hurt but I have been trying to reassure her that I will help her as much as possible.
Not sure how the adjustment is going to be.
Anyway...I am taking them all out to dinner tonight. ouch.
(by ALL OUT I was referring to Bethany, TJ, Brit, Amber, Amy)
update: I got an email from the school...they want me to start in 3 days (20th) instead. At least it is VIRTUAL training. I thought I had a week to get their paperwork and background check done AND get the son's fiancée settled in. I am NOT complaining though! Not AT ALL.
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