Eye on the Point in the Distance

If I have a reason...and I have to have a reason...I can work hard.  I just keep remembering that reason. 

So, I put on a dress for church Sunday.  I haven't gone to an actual church for quite a few weeks.  I have been listening to a sermon on line on Sunday mornings.

Anyhow, I put the dress on and sat on the edge of my bed to put on some stockings.  I looked up and there was the mirror.  I was facing the mirror and I got a good look at myself...sitting there in a pretty dress...and all I saw was a female version of Jaba the Hut in a dress.  I sat there and really looked at myself.  And I felt bad that I had made so many excuses to treat myself so badly.

And then I also thought about what I could use for my target.  It helps me if I have a target.  So...I am using my class reunion as a target.  It is next July. The end of July. 

I have been on it for 2 days now.  And I realized that the only way I can truly stick to anything is to limit what kind of food I have in my house.  I have to be strict.  And I have to MOVE.  The target is what is making me move. That plus I have been going to bed earlier to accommodate my early rises.

Once 5 pm. comes, I have had enough of my computer and my job and I walk away and have to use the evening to refuel.  So, if there is anything left undone, I get up at 5 a.m. and start over.  I find it easier to get up early and get to it than to stay up late and do anymore.  By 5 pm my brain says 'uncle' and I listen. 

I have been taking walks around the yard with Lucy about 2-3 times per day just for extra steps.  I have been using my Health Rider and adding reps.  Tonight I got back on my Gazelle and put in some time. I am rather hungry tonight because I did not eat lunch today...I skipped it because I was working to meet some deadlines and quitting for lunch was not in my best interest.  And tonight I ate what I should for a normal dinner. But I am still hungry.  ugh.

I had to go to the court house and get a copy of that worthless piece of paper known as my marriage license.  I have to have it to renew my DL to the TSA approved one.  It isn't bad enough that I had to get a copy of that thing but I had to PAY to get a copy. 

Without my target I would have used that as a reason to eat ice cream for dinner.  And I do not know how I became that person that would eat ice cream for dinner.  I used to eat healthy and exercise each day. And that person was in her 20's and thin and energetic.  This person may be 30 years older but I can be that person that eats healthy and exercises everyday again...and maybe regain some energy. 

I cannot be a whiner and grab for lame excuses. 

Making it Mine

I am still slogging through.  Yes, I still have some boxes that I need to unpack or put away.  My office is still not completely in order but it is in order enough that it is functional.  I am going to be hanging things on my walls, which is a new thing for me. 

I have never been good at decorating so I am taking my time. 

I went to a festival today with my parents that turned out not to be much and I ended up melting in the sun at a Corvette Show with them.  My dad has a corvette that he refurbished (I know that is not the correct terminology but it is close enough...it is...it is!).    However, I did manage to find a cookie jar that matches my new decor and so I can get rid of the one that douche bought at a yard sale for $3 over 6 years ago to give to me for my bday...and there was no reason for it other than he knew my bday was coming and he had absolutely no interest in dealing with it. 



Wow..that picture is much bigger than necessary...
It was nice to come home today and Lucy jumped and danced and squealed.  It is nice to have that kind of enthusiasm! 

I spent my time in the evenings last week binge watching some shows in Netflix.  It was nice to not have homework but I am going to suffer for it because I will have to spend my afternoon and evening tomorrow working. 

So...this is short and sweet.