Handling It

The job did not come through.  I went through a lot of emotions in the span of two hours.  It was not a job I know I would have kept.  It was just something that would help out with the bills until I got something I liked better.  I am still lamenting not using my teaching license.

One has to wonder, though, just what it is that I am missing?  On the flip(pant) side, it was not something I was supposed to do.  God has another purpose.  I just am not getting it. 

Philippians 4:6 "Do not worry about your life."  God is guiding.

My oldest sister passed a book onto my mother who passed it on to me over Thanksgiving.  It is written by Dr. Charles Stanley and is entitled How to Handle Adversity.  It has really helped enlighten me.  He has used the story of Joseph's life to illustrate. 

I know I get upset with not knowing what God is doing...what the purpose is.  Wouldn't you like to pray and get an answer?  Lots of times there is silence.  Nothing seems to change.  As humans, we want to see instant change, get instant answers.  We don't want to have to wait in line at the checkout for longer than 3 minutes...and that's pushing it!

Now imagine Joseph...sold as a slave by his brothers.  Years of servitude, false accusations, time in jail...and all that time having to hold on to faith that God had a purpose for his life.  Sometimes the wheels that are set in motion have a lot of turns to make and a lot of mechanisms to move. 

Karen told me to not take it so personal...God will supply our needs.  I have to pull myself back from that inner carnal nature that WANTS more.  I have more than a lot of people and I feel thankful and blessed. 

Troy keeps drumming away at me to write.  He thinks I should be writing books.  I do not see myself as an author.  I am not sure why he has that in his head.  But he has been banging on that drum for many years...at least 15.  I don't know what I'd write...my thoughts are too scattered. 

So I am meeting with another college advisor and taking another run at the math teaching degree. 

Life is a kaleidoscope.  Jumbled, ever changing, and colorful.