Sunday, November 3, 2013

Hanging On By My Fingertips

I took my daughter to the doctor at her request to do something about her anxiety. He asked her questions and talked with her then tested her. It seems she has a type of anxiety that makes her over analyze. I was not aware that she suffered so much from anxiety. She has held it in so long and kept it hidden from me for so long...but now I will get her the meds she needs. I want her life to be a better quality. I suffer from the same type of problem. I am hoping that after the first of the year to see a doctor for myself. I have so many issues to address. Some days, like today, I just feel like I can't cope anymore. Today was the worst day I've had in a long time. I have wanted to lash out at everyone around me. I feel like the volcano ready to explode but there is a cork in the mouth of this volcano and the pressure is building. I think the biggest problem is I'm tired. I don't feel well. I feel as if I have no control over my own life. And I have to be patient. I am really hoping that the medicine does my daughter some good. I would like to see her be able to enjoy her life.

2 comments:

Mister Ornery said...

I have read your last several posts and left no comments. Makes me feel like a voyeur. My apologies in case you are feeling that nobody reads or cares. I just can never think of the right words. Here's hoping tomorrow is better for you.

Nancy said...

It's fine. I am writing just to write. No comments necessary. LOL It is more a therapeutic thing for me rather than a social thing.