Hang on For the Ride

I dropped my college classes.  It was just too much.  I could not keep up with all of that AND my job training.  There was studying that I had to do for that and I had so much college work....I had no time to do anything with my family or just to relax for a moment.  I made a choice and chose to be a quitter.  The day after I chose to be a quitter, my job trainer informed us that we could move up and around in the company quite easily BUT even easier if we have a bachelors degree...and it doesn't matter what that degree is for...just as long as we have one.  I HAVE ONE OF THOSE and then some.  I also took stock of my age and how long I have until retirement.  Forget more college. 

Troy has a job interview today.  I know he is hoping he gets the job.  He was great at being the stay at home husband for a bit but now he says, "I need to get out of here!"  He is not good at staying put in one place for long.

I like my job.  I really do.  Most of the ppl I talk to are just wanting to pay a bill...understand how they got to where they are...wanting stay ahead of the curve.  Then once in a while, someone calls whining becuz they don't understand why they keep getting disconnect notices.  I go through their billing and payment history and try to nicely explain to them what happened where and what they can do to help themselves and things we can do to make it as painless as possible...but they still want to blame us.  And I get it...life has happened and it hasn't happened nicely and they need someone to blame.  I don't take it personally.  I am a faceless voice on the other end of the phone that respresents another bit of frustration in their lives.  I have been hung up on 3 times in the last week.  And they go on being angry and frustrated and I only pray they find an end to it all and come out on the other side.

My son has registered to attend a school that will get him a media job...a TV station job.  He is happy with that prospect.  Student loans will not cover all of it so we will have to cough up some money to help him.  Considering that this school has a 95 percent job placement rate and it will only take him and year and a half I think this is a good place to have to hand over the extra money.  Our daughter wants to attend this place also.  She wants to go more into the sound production end of it while our son wants to do the camera work and editing. 

I am off from work today.  On a part-time schedule.  That is what I was hired for...part time.  They let us know in the last week of training there was a few full time openings.  So, I put in for one.  However, it has to go through this process with the union first...and that takes a few weeks.  Then the guy that is the head of our department gets to decide who gets the fulltime openings out of the trainees that put in for it.  yay.

I have actually taken to the new job rather well.  and I don't mind going there.  I made some new friends in my class...even tho now we don't get to see each other much.  Different lunch times and breaks.  But we stop into see each other, tell jokes...it's a nice place.

There are days when I find myself sitting and thinking about what is actually going on around me in my life.  Some of it does not make any sense.  And I have to force myself NOT to try and understand...think about it.  It is out of my hands.  All I can do it trust...have faith...and hang on for the ride.